Let me tell you this… 10 minutes before I started writing this, I had no idea what I wanted to write about. I mean, the whole point of this section of my blog is to inspire you, and yet, I haven’t felt as inspired lately. Perhaps it’s because I haven’t been reading as much or haven’t seen any inspirational movies lately (I’m a sucker for those).
I was freaking out, knowing that I try to post every Monday and Thursday on here, and I was afraid that I wouldn’t have anything to write about for today’s post. I am trying to be consistent and it almost wasn’t going to happen this week.
It’s because I can be a bit of a perfectionist when it comes to this blog, and perhaps other things in life too. Being a blogger has been a dream of mine for years, so I want to get it right. I have to give myself a bit of credit though and admit that once I fall down, I am pretty quick to get back up. i just don’t like the fall and the amount of pressure I can put on myself to meet my blog deadlines, or even making sure I keep up with my healthy diet and exercise, and keeping up with my Lent promises can definitely be a drag. I make a commitment and if I see it slipping, I’m think, “Come on Lexie, get it together.”
I want to own it. I want to be like the other bloggers out there who get sponsorships and are really successful, despite the fact that I’m sure it took them more than just one year to get them to be where they are today. I want my blog to look better and stress over how long it can take me to make physical changes to my blog. I want all of my social media platforms to grow. And even though I know that it will happen over time with a lot of hard work, and when the time is right, I’m that person who wishes it would all happen overnight. If only we had a wand and it was that simple… right?!
A small sliver of it is the fact that I want to show others what I can do… but the rest is that I want to prove it to myself.
To be honest, it’s not exactly a bad thing, at least in my eyes. But what I do need to work on is focusing on progress, not perfection. I have a vision for my end goal, and I just want it to happen already! I guess you can say that patience is not my best virtue…
Okay, it is definitely my worst, especially with something I am passionate about.
But then I remind myself that if I focus too much on that, I’m going to miss all of the lessons I will learn along the way. In fact, I feel that is one of the best ways to learn and because of it, progress (not perfection) is necessary!
What will I learn if I get it right on the first try? I’m not saying that I purposely don’t want to get it right, however, isn’t that how we learn?
I see it when it comes to Lent as well. As a Catholic, I know that during the season of Lent, I am on a spiritual journey through the desert, letting myself be tempted because of whatever fast I have chosen. Through it, I grow closer to Jesus, the One who helps me to overcome my temptations, and reminds me that giving into temptation and sinning is an option in life. But when I mess up, confession is there because God does not want me to beat myself up over it. He wants me to confront my faults and analyze where I went wrong, ask Him for forgiveness, receive his Mercy and love, learn, and move on so that I can go on to try and be a better follower of Him.
God doesn’t expect me to be perfect, but He does expect me to keep trying to be the best that I can be.
If that’s how He is, why can’t I be the same? Doesn’t He know better than me?
I need to remember this whenever I set a goal for myself and I’m not doing it as well as I could be. Trying is absolutely necessary, yes. But you’re not going to hit the nail on the head every time, and that is okay. Plus, remember that you are never truly done improving. You can always make something better, even after it is “fixed”.
Everything in life is a work in progress. So instead of being annoyed that I missed a blog, or didn’t remember to check my blog post comments for an entire week, I need to remember to confront it, learn from it, and just try again.
No one is perfect. No one is supposed to be perfect and to be honest, life is better that way.
Keep trying. Forgive yourself. Know God loves you no matter what. And just keep pushing on.
Keep making progress!
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